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Just take it easy
And celebrate the malleable reality
Nothing is ever as it seems
This life is but a dream

Monday, December 10, 2007

Rain Camp /12:27 PM

hello Good People.

The weekend for me has been great. Attended YPM 'Rain Camp'. Was apprehensive initially, about the gang not being there due to their various commitments, upcoming exams and all. But it was all good in the end and definitely an eye opener. God never fails and provided me with the wonderful companionship of 3 girls, Sophia, RuiWen, and Celest, throughout the camp and many lil kids in the cell to look over. Got to know more about the youth zone and i did this mental comparison with the young adult zone and realised how different it was in a way it was less formalized. It makes me feel old and young all at the same time. Old in a way i'm no longer classified as youth and in ways i find it cute how the girls talk about stuffs such as boys and bgr. i realised i used to have those same sort of parlance. Young in ways simply just by hanging with them.

Anyhow, the camp was all good. I realised how weak and how I'm pratically nothing without His love and grace. I had always knew it as if by theology but never actually felt it. Last night, i poured out my heart and felt it. Being someone who sometimes have an aversion of pouring out my feelings peferring to mask it over hoping it'd eventually die out, it definitely felt good last night. I've come to realised that sometimes i can get too lazy to even verbalised my real thoughts, preferring to keep it to just a minority of unjudgemental close friends. I wonder if it's just me.

His unlimited love, grace and extended friendship i now understand and truely feel.

Anyway, life of late, I've been torn between hanging out with certain cliques. Like-minded friends and friends whom well..., consider you as part of the group even though you guys have nothing much in common actually. And I've realised how 'drifting' away by not turning up for certain gatherings and opting out for your closer friends could actually signal the wrong meaning that you actually can't be borthered to maintain the friendship. I'm not quite sure what to do or what to say in ways it doesn't offend.. Just hope all would be well and none of this taken too seriously...

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

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